God has used this chapter to reveal a long deep problem that hides in me for past 23 years, it is pride.

By Pastor John Piper
'Pride is a turning away from God specifically to take satisfaction in self... its antidote is the wakening and strengthening of faith in future grace.'
Therefore, it is not just a normal battle, but fight to severe the root of unbelief!

'What we suffer from... is humility in the wrong place. Modesty has moved from the organ of ambition. Modesty has settled upon the organ of conviction; where it was never meant to be. A man was meant to be doubtful about himself, but undoubting about truth; this has been exactly reversed. Nowadays the part of a man that a man does assert is exactly the part he ought not to assert - himself. The part he doubts is exactly the part he ought not to doubt - the Divine Reason.'

'Pride is an issue of where your satisfaction is... So the trust that looks away from our own resources and rests in God is what I mean by faith in future grace. This is the remedy for pride.'
And pride comes in strong and also in weak. Boasting is the response of a pride of success while self-pity is the response of pride to suffering. Boasting says, "I deserve admiration because i have achieved so much." Self-pity says, 'I deserve admiration because i have sacrificed so much."

Finally, in the grace of God that He opens my eyes to see the stronghold of pride that has built in me for such a long time. God has been given me so much blessings that i took it as products of mine.
I am proud of my smartness: I can understand many things much faster than my classmates. I find short-cut to get things done. Therefore, i spent much time to slack, to play and to waste.
I am proud of my effort: I think i can, so i do what i want to do. Therefore, i make my plan rather than God's.
It is specially bad if it happens in my attitude to God and serving. I think i know the sermon so that i will not listen. I think how the things work, so i do not like advices from others.
Lord, thank you for letting me to see the unbelief in me. Help me, as i know i cant do it by myself! Your grace is sufficient!